Struggling with staying humble as a music leader in a worship service is not a pitfall, it is a certainty. The dark-side of a desire to inspire is the desire to be appreciated and seen.
After such a long break from posting here I would be very surprised that many would be checking back.
It has been an incredibly interesting year since I last posted. For all intents I have retired from truly pursuing a professional career in music. The occasional “gig” is still happening and I have begun to look at Logic again and see what I was in process on when I took a break, but ultimately there are no plans for anything significant.
You have heard a little of this before on this blog, and maybe this is simply more self-justification, but I must say I believe in do-overs. Maybe I mean start overs, maybe I mean start a new, maybe I mean just starting late.
I have an aunt who I respect greatly. I would say that she has not had the easiest pathway, and at one point needed to do over, in her 40’s. So she did. Got a law degree, became a lawyer, and is now, and will retire a judge. Nice do over!
When I was 16 I wanted a studio. I wanted to record my own music, I wanted to be that guy. Well it wasn’t until about 5 years ago that I finally got one, and I feel like every song I produce I am getting better and closer to doing something of the quality I dreamed of all those years ago.
One thing I will tell you, is that you need support. In life you need encouragement, and it is important to surround yourself with the delusionally supportive (my children really think I am famous!), the unconditionally supportive (my beautiful wife speaks the truth in love) and the constructively supportive (I have a few voices that have generously critiqued my progress these past few years, and they are helping me get better). I would suggest none of the purely critical, it is hard enough sticking to things when you receive good feedback, negativity is just hard.
I can’t encourage you enough. If you have found it and are doing it, good for you. You are blessed, keep doing it and get better!! For the rest of us, start now. Do over from scratch. Find a way to do your passion. I am not talking about being reckless and quitting a job. I am talking about being passionate and chasing a dream.
Yes it is a roller coaster and perspective is everything. Find ways to keep perspective. Last night I was up far too late, tired and bleary eyed, producing the next song, and it was great. The process was great, I kind of felt like that guy, even if just for a while.
I am looking forward to an interview this Saturday night at around 6pm EST on JOY1250 to talk about my new single “I Will Bless The Lord”. I am being interviewed by James Kurtis of New Canadian Countdown fame. Listen to it locally or use the link to listen to it online if you are from out of town.
A brief thought. As so many of us continue to think about what worship is, I wonder if we have become too intellectual and abstract in our thinking.
For instance, if I want to create a chocolate bar (a noble goal), I would go through a creative process of thinking about the flavour I wanted, how it would be put together and held together, how it would be packaged and produced. All of that would take time, planning, creativity and execution. There would a simplicity to it though, because through the whole process there would not be much room for error. The bar would either taste good or not. It would hold together or not. It would fit in the package or not…etc. By focusing on what I am trying to accomplish, making a chocolate bar, I simplify so much of the process.I think an area that needs improvement in many churches is defining worship simply. Again, this might take some work, time, creativity, planning, but if we do not have a simple picture of what we would like it too look and “taste like”, it quickly becomes cerebral. Terms like “having a good heart” need to be defined in connection to a pragmatic thought that it should be good. How do you know if the packaging fits if you don’t know what you want to put in the package? If one creates a simple picture, and develops a reasonable plan to achieve it, it becomes simple to see if we are achieving the goal. I do realize there is the other problem, the picture is well defined but there is little appetite or ability to execute the vision, but that is fodder for another post.